Category: memories

Jesus Is With Me

Here it is four o’clock in the morning and I have had little sleep. My mind has gotten away from me a bit and I must refocus my thoughts on Jesus and rely on HIM for my peace and well-being. I have chosen not to digress anymore on what has been nagging me this past night instead I want to dwell and think on some scriptures.

Colossians 3:1-3 NIV

Since then, you have been with raised with Christ, set your minds on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above and not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.

Highlights from Psalm 139:1-4,7-8, 11-12, 17-18

O LORD, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You searched out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold you know it all together.

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I feel from your presence?

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.

How precious to me are your thoughts O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them they are more than the sand. I awake, I am still with you!

Philippians 4:8,9

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is commendable, if there is anything excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on these things.

Dear Jesus,

Thank you that you are always with me and each person that has called you LORD. Thank you that what has caused me to be wide awake is now gone like a vapor in the wind it is no longer on my mind. Thank you for your amazing love and grace that is new every morning.

Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and all that is within me!

Bless His holy Name!

May His praise and His presence give me rest this day!








How thankful are you for the things the Lord has given you this year? Are you thankful for the things the Lord has brought you through? How thankful are you for your salvation in Christ Jesus?

I will tell you what I’m thankful for this year and for the rest of my life!

  1. My salvation in knowing Jesus as my Lord!
  2. The seasons of great affliction in my soul as I can only grow closer to the Lord through times like these. They are not pleasant times to be in but the time pouring my heart to the Lord and watching what He does in me and through me is worth it.
  3. The Lord’s healing in my life!
  4. My relationships with family and friends!
  5.  The beautiful world I live in.

Those are just a few of the things I’m thankful for! What about you?

Driven To Your Knees

We all have situations in our lives that drive us to get in the presence of God. Whether it is our spouses, kids, parents, the world we all come into contact with difficult and heart-wrenching circumstances the question is who will be our source of comfort and healing in those times. We can choose to the Almighty God or we can cry, be angry and harbor bitterness in our hearts. I have been in both places and let me tell you that is a far better place to be on your knees in communication with the Lord than with nothing to console you at all.

I spent the first 9 years of my marriage learning to go to God for everything and I am still learning. I wanted God to take away the pain and grief in an instant but God did not do that in my case. As the memories of abuse would surface I can remember now that God was right there with me although at the time it did not feel that way. The tears would just keep coming and I did not know when it would end. I am on the other side of that now and I can say that though it was a difficult time for me I would not change it because I got to know THE LORD in a way I never dreamed existed here on this earth.

There is a song I like to sing here are the words below although I do not know who wrote it.

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary pure and holy ,Tried and true/ And with thanksgiving I’ll be a living sanctuary for you.

There is something special that happens when we go to God and it is more than just getting to know God: IT IS A SPECIAL THOUGHT TO ME THAT GOD KNOWS ME. HE TOOK THE TIME TO MAKE ME, HE TAKES THE TIME. How many of us can say we take the time for HIM. To Get to KNOW HIM though I am not always physically on my knees I will tell you this that when I do I fall to my face before HIM.

Consider that Circumstance as way to know the LORD in a deeper way than you have ever Known HIM before! YOU WILL BE GLAD YOU DID!

Open Book

As I am listening to Francesca Battistelli song, ” Write Your Story” , I am thinking about my own life and how God has written His story in my heart and life. Each and every day I get up I have had the mentality to just God let me get through this day instead of God how do you want me to use my day. It’s true that I thank HIM everyday for the ability of waking up and having another day on earth. I thank HIM for the things I have but what if I invited HIM to take part in my day. I don’t necessarily mean working on Bible studies, reading the Bible, writing, and seeking HIS face, those things are good but what if I invited talked to HIM while doing the dishes, the laundry, cleaning the toilets etcetera in my home.

I am in the midst of being in two Women’s Bible Study groups and doing two different Bible studies. The first one I am doing is a Beth Moore study on David and it is the updated version and I am working on week 4 and just finished Day 2 tonight. The second study I have done before but it has been revised and has a video series with it is Joanna Weaver’s Mary Heart in A Martha. The two studies are working together nicely for me in the season I am in. There is always new facet or nugget of truth that God places in my heart with each study of the I do in the Bible. Even when I am “just” reading the Bible I can’t help but to keep in study mode. I find it hard to just read it without studying it too.

In answering which of the two sisters I am more like in the Mary/Martha study. I am definitely a Mary when it comes right down to it although there was a time several years ago when I was neither a Mary or a Martha. The years 2003-2009 were the hardest years for me as I was going through the healing process of my childhood physical and sexual abuse with an witchcraft/occult mixed in my life for the first 6 years of my life at least. During these years I was so focused on myself and what happened to me that I could not see past it. I worked off and on but I did not clean my apartment until it got so bad that people would not visit me. I was a hard person to be around. I was also in state where I went to everyone else for sympathy for what I went through instead of going to the LORD for healing and pouring out my heart to others instead of going to God first. It is true we do need the body of Christ to minister to us through the power of the Holy Spirit. It is the LORD that I needed and I was fortunate that the people that were and are continuing to be in my life having always pointed me to the LORD. I remember saying and feeling afraid of being set free from all of it because I did not know if I would like myself after all of that was gone.

I am here to tell you that I do enjoy who I am now and yes there are times when I do fall backwards but THE LORD is there to pick me up and instead of going to everyone else I go to HIM because HE is Good and HE only wants the very best for me. When I pray I can relate to the LORD being the best Father because God placed me in the care of a good, God fearing couple, Dub and Pam, who I can call not only my parents but also mom and dad to their faces and hug them. I can tell you that I love them and if God can bring me out of a horrendous situation that He can pull you out of the pit with the help of body of Christ that surrounds you.

For those who needed to read this I say this to you:

MY God is a faithful God!

My God is loving and compassionate!

My God is the GOOD Shepherd and cares for you!

If you are going through the ringer of life turn and pour your heart out to the LORD and HE will hear and answer you in HIS time.

A poem for Ms. Jean Banks

I feel cold tears flowing down my face

As I pray for a woman that is dear to me

She helps out at the church food pantry

And She makes the coffee on Sundays

Her service to us all makes me smile

She taught children for many many years

She is part of the Women of Titus Two group

Older women mentoring the youngers

Through fellowship of practical things as well as

A discussion of the Bible

I have the pleasure to call many women my grandmother or mother in the Lord

I pray that this one who is not doing well

Will pull through this ordeal.

She did pull through it and by God’s great mercy

She is still with us to this day!

Spark of Life: Bruce Williams Tribute

A spark of Life

A twinkle of the eye
This life is fleeting
We are to live the best we can
To give Glory to the One and only God who reigns
It is a wonder to not want to be alone
For the Lord is always with us
Whether we acknowledge His presence or not
He sees us for who we truly are
And by His grace He sees us white as snow
Through the crimson blood of His Son
Today, I remember a friend,
Whose passion was Jesus
A worshiper at heart
I can just imagine Him now
With his flags waving high
In front of the Lord most high
The tears wiped away from his eyes
And huge smile upon his face
As He sees the King of Glory seated upon His throne
Finally face to face.

Reflective Testimony

Psalm 116:8-9 ESV

For you have delivered my soul from death,

my eyes from tears,

my feet from stumbling;

I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.

There is a song that is dear to my heart that was a very popular worship song in my church for many years and I think that you may know it as well. It is done by Darrell Evans and a few other well known artists as well. The song is called Trading My Sorrows. I am going share the lyrics here below and tell how it is both blessed and affected my life.

I’m trading my sorrow
I’m trading my shame
I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord

I’m trading my sickness
I’m trading my pain
I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord

And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

I’m pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
I’m blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure
And his joy’s gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning

I’ve recently heard this song again and I noticed that as I was singing it that I changed the tenses of the verbs in the song because in my walk with the Lord over the years I have done the following: I traded my sorrow/I traded my shame/ I laid them down for the joy of the LORD. I traded my sickness. I traded my pain. I laid them down for the joy of the LORD. I said yes to healing and redemption from the LORD. I said yes to his direction for my life. Not only did I have to lay those things down for the joy of the Lord but also my carnivorous desires that were not in line with HIS Word. I am here to tell you that if all you can do is read and say the Name of Jesus then my friend THE LORD has begun to work in your heart and one day you too can sing this song in a new way that can become your testimony of the LORD’s goodness and power in your life. There was a place in my life where I could not see past the pain and fearful of the other side. I hear to tell you don’t be afraid to face to the pains of rejection, abandonment, abuse and the list could go on from there because The everlasting GOD who loves you is there with you right now to bring you peace, comfort and healing.

Dear Lord and Father in Heaven,

Bless all those who have just read this post and feel you speaking through it to them this day. Open their hearts to receive all that you have for them today. Put people in their path that can help them along to the path of freedom and joy that You have in store for them LORD. Most of all shower each one of these readers with your love this day.

In Jesus mighty name Amen!