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Great Expectations

There is a great longing and expectation in my heart to see and be in the presence of my  Lord and King. This longing was birthed into my soul on the day; I got a glimpse of Jesus as a child just twelve years-old. I will never forget that moment when I saw Him with arms open wide;  like a Father who has returned from a long trip to see his newborn child for the first time. There was assurance and reinforcement in my life that He was truly real and that He was truly God.

Today, is the day in the United States that we celebrate as a nation the founding of the nation as well as Independence from England. It is also a day that brings a great longing in my heart for true dependence on The Lord for this country and the rest of the world to recognize that Jesus Christ is God and by His authority we are to live by.

There is a great longing and expectation to see the Lord accomplish great things in my life and those around me. It is a time of reflection for the true independence He has brought in my life and those around me and the sacrifice of Jesus on behalf of not only my life but the lives of the whole world.

Let us remember that, independence and freedom did not come without a sacrifice of the shedding of blood. So, also your independence from addictions, strife, fear, worry, and depression did not come without a price of sacrifice.

It is a deliberate and voluntary choice to choose to take God at His Word and believe that His death on the cross was enough to bring you into freedom from these things.

Psalm 32:12 Blessed is the nation, whose God is the Lord, the people chose for his inheritance.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that He gave his one and only son, whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Philippians 1:6 Being confident in this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.



Set Your Hope

Where do you set your hope?

In whom do you rely on?

Is it in your wealth?

Is it in your family?

Is it in yourself?

How can one succeed in life without placing their hope and faith Jesus Christ?

There is a little frame that I received when I graduated high-school twenty years ago from my founding pastor and his wife. It has this saying on it:

When I try

I fail……

When I trust 

God succeeds.”

 I still have this little frame which contains these words which is a huge milestone message in my opinion.

I have gone through these twenty years through various heart wrenching circumstances. The loss of loved ones, battling depression, battling various illnesses, being hospitalized for various things, battled thoughts of suicide while being on or off various medications and the list could still go on. I have been through times where I have been very angry with God for the things that I had gone through but then I would see this message on this frame all through out these years. I knew all that I had to do was to trust in God and no matter the situation or how hard it got deep down inside I knew His way was the best.

No matter what the plans I had were only GOD’s plan for my life would succeed. I would be extremely stubborn in my anger, grief and despair that I would throw tantrums wondering why I had to go through these things but until I went through ministry of being one on one with the LORD through the guidance of a counselor.

The Lord showed me where He was at each instance of abuse, betrayal, abandonment, loss of loved ones, in the hospital, in the tears and anger.

Let me let you in on the secret He is with you too through all the things you were and are going through. You see, Jesus, knew it all, yet for His purposes He allowed these things in my life in order to draw me closer and closer to Himself. He showed me that even as an infant in the crib that HIS banner of love was over me and He would weep over every instance of sin that was either done to me or that I had done to someone else.

One of my favorite worship songs a few years ago for which I cannot remember the exact title but here are some of the words.

His banner over me is love. His banner over me is love and He takes to His banqueting table of love.

For every tear you shed and every circumstance you face Jesus will be there, so set your hope in HIS everlasting love this day. Take some time right now, to be still and know the LORD is GOD in your life today.


Daughter of the KING

The ladies at my church just had a tea party and our theme was Being a Daughter of the KING! It has been a treat over the years at my church to hold a ladies tea and this year I co-hosted a table and have done so once two years ago. This is a time to bring out the fine china, flatware,glasses,wear dresses, hats and even gloves. It’s a time to celebrate being a woman.

I have enjoyed this tea especially and like with past teas that I have gone to I read two of my poems. The poems that I shared were Reflections (written in 2010) and Blessed King (see previous post). It was a joy to read them and I felt as though The LORD was bringing peace and His freedom to those in the room. I know that many enjoyed them. One said, that a chill went through her body as I read. There are others who shared their talent and their hearts. It was a blessing to me!

So, what comes to your mind with the title Being a Daughter of the KING? Inquiring minds want to know!

I will tell you what comes to my mind!

Being a daughter of the KING, YOU are….

Created in HIS Image ( Genesis 1:27, Psalm 139:13-16)

Apple of HIS EYE (Zechariah 2:8) (Psalms 17:8)

In the PALM OF HIS Hand

Strong and Valiant for YOU draw your Strength from the source of Life itself.

Beautiful (Song of Solomon 4:7)


Tangible Presence 3

As I look around the world in which I live I can’t help but notice that we in the church need a fresh imparting of the Holy Spirit especially with those of my generation and younger. May HIS presence also fall upon the generations that precede mine but like salvation unless God initiates it will fall upon us like words on deaf ears. People keep wanting things like revival to happen and pray for it, but when it comes do we recognize it as being a move from GOD. When I wrote in part 1 of Tangible Presence about my experience being nailed to the floor as I began to cry and cry; some of people that are part of my church asked me where did this happen and they were not aware of it? Lord, let not the generations before or after mine miss what You are doing in the present.

I remember how it started when I was a teen, a few of the teens, had come back from Toronto, Canada where the LORD was moving mightily at the time and it became known as the Toronto Blessing. When these teens began to share what happened there The LORD moved upon the congregation and one by one starting with the youth came up for prayer and many people were touched by the power of GOD. God began to build unity within the hearts of the pastors of this city and has since celebrated 20 years from the day it was founded. This group has become known as the Durham Ministers in prayer.

All the generations in the earth today need to see THE LORD move mightily in each and every nation around the globe. Lord, build your unity in the hearts of my generation and younger so that those that are currently in the church will stake a claim to this earth and say what the GOD of Abraham, Issac, Jacob did for them HE WILL DO FOR US and may all the generations living in the earth today become MARKED with the anointing of GOD so that this world will proclaim YOU are GOD!

Tangible Presence Part 2

The first time that I heard about the Holy Spirit was while reading a book that my birth mother had by Benny Hinn called, “Good morning, Holy Spirit” I read the whole book and began to cry, I wanted my life at that time to change as well as my surroundings. I was just 12 year-old at that time and as I mentioned in my testimony in another post, I accepted Jesus in my heart while watching a kids television show called “Gospel Bill” by Willie George ministries.

I saw this program every Saturday along with Superbook and Flying House on a channel that could be picked up on my grandparents old Zenith Television with a roof top antenna. The network was called Trinity Broadcasting Network. I can even remember that the channel was 61 on the turn dial.

As an 12 year-old and listening to my sister cry in another room in the mobile home we were living in, I was fearful and wanted to run away and even thought about going out the window down the trail hitch to seek for help but I did not know who to turn to or where to go. I closed the curtains on my window and I went to hide in the closet as I knew why my sister cried but was powerless to stop what was happening and that I would be next. Frightened, I asked God, to make it stop and to make me safe. The next day , I believe I read the book about the Holy Spirit and right then had the vision of Jesus with His hands out-stretched and something I heard something like a harp in the background. This quieted and calmed me as ONLY GOD can do. My birth mother, called an elder of the church we attended at the time. This elder, was also in law enforcement, at the time, and He told me to write it down. I no longer have the book I wrote it in but I remember that this took place in November of 1991.

Looking back, at the prayer I what I asked God, HE did answer it. He what I wanted to runaway from stop by taking me out it and not only that He made me safe. Ever since I had read that there was The Holy Spirit, I’ve wanted to embrace HIM. He has taken me from this stage and made my prayer to be, from Lord make me safe to make me brave. Make me brave to do the things which you have called me to do.  I believe ,HE continues to do so as I yield to what HIS plans are for me.

Stay tuned more to come..

Tangible Presence

The tangible manifested presence of God, is awe-inspiring but also can be terrifying to those that do not know the Lord as both Savior and Master. When one gives the gospel presentation to children it is often presented to them the sinners which may go something like the following:

Dear Lord,

I recognize that I am a sinner. All the lies I have told, all the bad decisions I have made whether it is something I thought of doing or saying something to someone. I recognize that I need to be washed clean of my sin, which was accomplished on the cross where Jesus died. I believe Jesus is the Son of GOD and that He lived a sinless life here on earth. Come Lord Jesus, and live in my heart from this moment forward I choose to live for you. Amen.

Have you ever thought about the fact that we ask Jesus to come live in our hearts? When Jesus was here on earth, He said He would send a “helper” to in essence provide the power we need to live a life worthy of being called His follower. This helper arrived to dwell within the hearts of mankind; known as the Holy Spirit, on the day we call Pentecost. The Holy Spirit is who I think of as being the tangible presence of God. In Acts Chapter two we find that the Holy Spirit arrives as flaming tongues of fires settle upon all the disciples(followers) of Jesus Christ. All those that were in the upper room were given a whole new language that they themselves did not know when they spoke them. However, later in the passage of the Bible, it explains that the people were speaking languages that other people from different regions of the known world could speak.

Moses saw the manifested presence God as in the burning bush and later as the Pillar and the cloud. Solomon saw the presence God as the Lord made Himself known as He descended in the temple for where God’s presence would dwell. The list goes on in the Bible.

In my own life I have experienced the manifested presence of God in my own life. As a teen I experienced His presence while attending another church that I went to while the worship band from my church came to provide the music for the service. I distinctly remember going up for prayer and then immediately falling out to the floor from the power of the presence of God. It was at this time that I began to sob uncontrollably. I will never know how much pain along with memories that the LORD took away that day through His healing power, I felt like I was nailed to the ground as I tried to get but could not do so under the weight of the glory of God. I have other examples in my life but none can compare to the intensity of His presence in my life..

More to follow in another post!!

Jesus Is With Me

Here it is four o’clock in the morning and I have had little sleep. My mind has gotten away from me a bit and I must refocus my thoughts on Jesus and rely on HIM for my peace and well-being. I have chosen not to digress anymore on what has been nagging me this past night instead I want to dwell and think on some scriptures.

Colossians 3:1-3 NIV

Since then, you have been with raised with Christ, set your minds on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above and not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.

Highlights from Psalm 139:1-4,7-8, 11-12, 17-18

O LORD, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You searched out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold you know it all together.

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I feel from your presence?

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.

How precious to me are your thoughts O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them they are more than the sand. I awake, I am still with you!

Philippians 4:8,9

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is commendable, if there is anything excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on these things.

Dear Jesus,

Thank you that you are always with me and each person that has called you LORD. Thank you that what has caused me to be wide awake is now gone like a vapor in the wind it is no longer on my mind. Thank you for your amazing love and grace that is new every morning.

Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and all that is within me!

Bless His holy Name!

May His praise and His presence give me rest this day!