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Tangible Presence 3

As I look around the world in which I live I can’t help but notice that we in the church need a fresh imparting of the Holy Spirit especially with those of my generation and younger. May HIS presence also fall upon the generations that precede mine but like salvation unless God initiates it will fall upon us like words on deaf ears. People keep wanting things like revival to happen and pray for it, but when it comes do we recognize it as being a move from GOD. When I wrote in part 1 of Tangible Presence about my experience being nailed to the floor as I began to cry and cry; some of people that are part of my church asked me where did this happen and they were not aware of it? Lord, let not the generations before or after mine miss what You are doing in the present.

I remember how it started when I was a teen, a few of the teens, had come back from Toronto, Canada where the LORD was moving mightily at the time and it became known as the Toronto Blessing. When these teens began to share what happened there The LORD moved upon the congregation and one by one starting with the youth came up for prayer and many people were touched by the power of GOD. God began to build unity within the hearts of the pastors of this city and has since celebrated 20 years from the day it was founded. This group has become known as the Durham Ministers in prayer.

All the generations in the earth today need to see THE LORD move mightily in each and every nation around the globe. Lord, build your unity in the hearts of my generation and younger so that those that are currently in the church will stake a claim to this earth and say what the GOD of Abraham, Issac, Jacob did for them HE WILL DO FOR US and may all the generations living in the earth today become MARKED with the anointing of GOD so that this world will proclaim YOU are GOD!


Tangible Presence Part 2

The first time that I heard about the Holy Spirit was while reading a book that my birth mother had by Benny Hinn called, “Good morning, Holy Spirit” I read the whole book and began to cry, I wanted my life at that time to change as well as my surroundings. I was just 12 year-old at that time and as I mentioned in my testimony in another post, I accepted Jesus in my heart while watching a kids television show called “Gospel Bill” by Willie George ministries.

I saw this program every Saturday along with Superbook and Flying House on a channel that could be picked up on my grandparents old Zenith Television with a roof top antenna. The network was called Trinity Broadcasting Network. I can even remember that the channel was 61 on the turn dial.

As an 12 year-old and listening to my sister cry in another room in the mobile home we were living in, I was fearful and wanted to run away and even thought about going out the window down the trail hitch to seek for help but I did not know who to turn to or where to go. I closed the curtains on my window and I went to hide in the closet as I knew why my sister cried but was powerless to stop what was happening and that I would be next. Frightened, I asked God, to make it stop and to make me safe. The next day , I believe I read the book about the Holy Spirit and right then had the vision of Jesus with His hands out-stretched and something I heard something like a harp in the background. This quieted and calmed me as ONLY GOD can do. My birth mother, called an elder of the church we attended at the time. This elder, was also in law enforcement, at the time, and He told me to write it down. I no longer have the book I wrote it in but I remember that this took place in November of 1991.

Looking back, at the prayer I what I asked God, HE did answer it. He what I wanted to runaway from stop by taking me out it and not only that He made me safe. Ever since I had read that there was The Holy Spirit, I’ve wanted to embrace HIM. He has taken me from this stage and made my prayer to be, from Lord make me safe to make me brave. Make me brave to do the things which you have called me to do.  I believe ,HE continues to do so as I yield to what HIS plans are for me.

Stay tuned more to come..

Tangible Presence

The tangible manifested presence of God, is awe-inspiring but also can be terrifying to those that do not know the Lord as both Savior and Master. When one gives the gospel presentation to children it is often presented to them the sinners which may go something like the following:

Dear Lord,

I recognize that I am a sinner. All the lies I have told, all the bad decisions I have made whether it is something I thought of doing or saying something to someone. I recognize that I need to be washed clean of my sin, which was accomplished on the cross where Jesus died. I believe Jesus is the Son of GOD and that He lived a sinless life here on earth. Come Lord Jesus, and live in my heart from this moment forward I choose to live for you. Amen.

Have you ever thought about the fact that we ask Jesus to come live in our hearts? When Jesus was here on earth, He said He would send a “helper” to in essence provide the power we need to live a life worthy of being called His follower. This helper arrived to dwell within the hearts of mankind; known as the Holy Spirit, on the day we call Pentecost. The Holy Spirit is who I think of as being the tangible presence of God. In Acts Chapter two we find that the Holy Spirit arrives as flaming tongues of fires settle upon all the disciples(followers) of Jesus Christ. All those that were in the upper room were given a whole new language that they themselves did not know when they spoke them. However, later in the passage of the Bible, it explains that the people were speaking languages that other people from different regions of the known world could speak.

Moses saw the manifested presence God as in the burning bush and later as the Pillar and the cloud. Solomon saw the presence God as the Lord made Himself known as He descended in the temple for where God’s presence would dwell. The list goes on in the Bible.

In my own life I have experienced the manifested presence of God in my own life. As a teen I experienced His presence while attending another church that I went to while the worship band from my church came to provide the music for the service. I distinctly remember going up for prayer and then immediately falling out to the floor from the power of the presence of God. It was at this time that I began to sob uncontrollably. I will never know how much pain along with memories that the LORD took away that day through His healing power, I felt like I was nailed to the ground as I tried to get but could not do so under the weight of the glory of God. I have other examples in my life but none can compare to the intensity of His presence in my life..

More to follow in another post!!


Jesus Is With Me

Here it is four o’clock in the morning and I have had little sleep. My mind has gotten away from me a bit and I must refocus my thoughts on Jesus and rely on HIM for my peace and well-being. I have chosen not to digress anymore on what has been nagging me this past night instead I want to dwell and think on some scriptures.

Colossians 3:1-3 NIV

Since then, you have been with raised with Christ, set your minds on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above and not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.

Highlights from Psalm 139:1-4,7-8, 11-12, 17-18

O LORD, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You searched out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold you know it all together.

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I feel from your presence?

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.

How precious to me are your thoughts O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them they are more than the sand. I awake, I am still with you!

Philippians 4:8,9

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is commendable, if there is anything excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on these things.

Dear Jesus,

Thank you that you are always with me and each person that has called you LORD. Thank you that what has caused me to be wide awake is now gone like a vapor in the wind it is no longer on my mind. Thank you for your amazing love and grace that is new every morning.

Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and all that is within me!

Bless His holy Name!

May His praise and His presence give me rest this day!








How thankful are you for the things the Lord has given you this year? Are you thankful for the things the Lord has brought you through? How thankful are you for your salvation in Christ Jesus?

I will tell you what I’m thankful for this year and for the rest of my life!

  1. My salvation in knowing Jesus as my Lord!
  2. The seasons of great affliction in my soul as I can only grow closer to the Lord through times like these. They are not pleasant times to be in but the time pouring my heart to the Lord and watching what He does in me and through me is worth it.
  3. The Lord’s healing in my life!
  4. My relationships with family and friends!
  5.  The beautiful world I live in.

Those are just a few of the things I’m thankful for! What about you?


Driven To Your Knees

We all have situations in our lives that drive us to get in the presence of God. Whether it is our spouses, kids, parents, the world we all come into contact with difficult and heart-wrenching circumstances the question is who will be our source of comfort and healing in those times. We can choose to the Almighty God or we can cry, be angry and harbor bitterness in our hearts. I have been in both places and let me tell you that is a far better place to be on your knees in communication with the Lord than with nothing to console you at all.

I spent the first 9 years of my marriage learning to go to God for everything and I am still learning. I wanted God to take away the pain and grief in an instant but God did not do that in my case. As the memories of abuse would surface I can remember now that God was right there with me although at the time it did not feel that way. The tears would just keep coming and I did not know when it would end. I am on the other side of that now and I can say that though it was a difficult time for me I would not change it because I got to know THE LORD in a way I never dreamed existed here on this earth.

There is a song I like to sing here are the words below although I do not know who wrote it.

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary pure and holy ,Tried and true/ And with thanksgiving I’ll be a living sanctuary for you.

There is something special that happens when we go to God and it is more than just getting to know God: IT IS A SPECIAL THOUGHT TO ME THAT GOD KNOWS ME. HE TOOK THE TIME TO MAKE ME, HE TAKES THE TIME. How many of us can say we take the time for HIM. To Get to KNOW HIM though I am not always physically on my knees I will tell you this that when I do I fall to my face before HIM.

Consider that Circumstance as way to know the LORD in a deeper way than you have ever Known HIM before! YOU WILL BE GLAD YOU DID!


Open Book

As I am listening to Francesca Battistelli song, ” Write Your Story” , I am thinking about my own life and how God has written His story in my heart and life. Each and every day I get up I have had the mentality to just God let me get through this day instead of God how do you want me to use my day. It’s true that I thank HIM everyday for the ability of waking up and having another day on earth. I thank HIM for the things I have but what if I invited HIM to take part in my day. I don’t necessarily mean working on Bible studies, reading the Bible, writing, and seeking HIS face, those things are good but what if I invited talked to HIM while doing the dishes, the laundry, cleaning the toilets etcetera in my home.

I am in the midst of being in two Women’s Bible Study groups and doing two different Bible studies. The first one I am doing is a Beth Moore study on David and it is the updated version and I am working on week 4 and just finished Day 2 tonight. The second study I have done before but it has been revised and has a video series with it is Joanna Weaver’s Mary Heart in A Martha. The two studies are working together nicely for me in the season I am in. There is always new facet or nugget of truth that God places in my heart with each study of the I do in the Bible. Even when I am “just” reading the Bible I can’t help but to keep in study mode. I find it hard to just read it without studying it too.

In answering which of the two sisters I am more like in the Mary/Martha study. I am definitely a Mary when it comes right down to it although there was a time several years ago when I was neither a Mary or a Martha. The years 2003-2009 were the hardest years for me as I was going through the healing process of my childhood physical and sexual abuse with an witchcraft/occult mixed in my life for the first 6 years of my life at least. During these years I was so focused on myself and what happened to me that I could not see past it. I worked off and on but I did not clean my apartment until it got so bad that people would not visit me. I was a hard person to be around. I was also in state where I went to everyone else for sympathy for what I went through instead of going to the LORD for healing and pouring out my heart to others instead of going to God first. It is true we do need the body of Christ to minister to us through the power of the Holy Spirit. It is the LORD that I needed and I was fortunate that the people that were and are continuing to be in my life having always pointed me to the LORD. I remember saying and feeling afraid of being set free from all of it because I did not know if I would like myself after all of that was gone.

I am here to tell you that I do enjoy who I am now and yes there are times when I do fall backwards but THE LORD is there to pick me up and instead of going to everyone else I go to HIM because HE is Good and HE only wants the very best for me. When I pray I can relate to the LORD being the best Father because God placed me in the care of a good, God fearing couple, Dub and Pam, who I can call not only my parents but also mom and dad to their faces and hug them. I can tell you that I love them and if God can bring me out of a horrendous situation that He can pull you out of the pit with the help of body of Christ that surrounds you.

For those who needed to read this I say this to you:

MY God is a faithful God!

My God is loving and compassionate!

My God is the GOOD Shepherd and cares for you!

If you are going through the ringer of life turn and pour your heart out to the LORD and HE will hear and answer you in HIS time.